i just got a baby..
its a sexy mac...oh its so hot

Ani DiFranco - Both Hands lyrics


 I am walking
out in the rain
and I am listening to the low moan
of the dial tone again
and I am getting
nowhere with you
and I can't let it go
and I can't get through...
the old woman behind the pink curtains
and the closed door
on the first floor
she's listening through the air shaft
to see how long our swan song can last
and both hands
now use both hands
oh, no don't close your eyes
I am writing
graffitti on your body
I am drawing the story of
how hard we tried
I am watching your chest rise and fall
like the tides of my life,
and the rest of it all
and your bones have been my bedframe
and your flesh has been my pillow
I am waiting for sleep
to offer up the deep
with both hands
in eachother's shadows we grew less and less tall
and eventually our theories couldn't explain it all
and I'm recording our history now on the bedroom wall
and eventually the landlord will come
and paint over it all
and I am walking
out in the rain
and I am listening to the low moan of the dial tone again
and I am getting nowhere with you
and I can't let it go
and I can't get though
So now use both hands
please use both hands
oh, no don't close your eyes
I am writing graffitti on your body
I am drawing the story of how hard we tried
hard we tried
how hard we tried

 STARS LYRICS

"Your Ex-Lover Is Dead"

God that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said 'yes I think we've met before'
In that instant it started to pour,
Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of the time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name...

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
Tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in
Now you're outside me
You see all the beauty
Repent all your sin

It's nothing but time and a face that you lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard
I'll send you the news
From a house down the road from real love...

Live through this, and you won't look back...
Live through this, and you won't look back...
Live through this, and you won't look back...

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

I'm not sorry there's nothing to save...

 well. i think i;ll be back for just a bit. 
whens the last time i honstly wrote in here.
well right now. 
i feel a bit trapped.
i don;t know what to do.
having hard relationship decisions.
i guess were both just stuck in something we never thought we would be in
im not even sure when this will end up
it just is in there air.
as you get older. 
it just sucks i notice.
but i want to be a kid forever

i have a date for prom! 
i love when he hugs me really close.
he makes me smile so much that my cheeks hurt in a good way.
such a sweatheart, a gentlemen.
hes so awesome. 
he came to see me.
he took me to the movies.
this is unbelievable.

whats wrong with me?

so on ..umm was itt tues. yes tuesday. i went out for sushi with dave. we havn't talked in forever and i mean forever,so we talked about everyyyyyyyyyyything..like there was so much catching up to do. and after spending that amazing night with him i noticed at the end of the night that my life really isn;t that boring. the whole night i just felt like i was in a moive..the stories we were telling eachother were stoires you would only hear in a movie. im glad we went out it was just so long that i havn;t talked to him. this year of gr 12 was something to me. i feel like i've figure alot about myself. ..or maybe thats b.c i smoke up to much? or ii think  about things to much..but not that much any more, the firday that i smoked up, i had a cry fest. i don;t remeber much of that night but ever since that night i felt like i was reborn, like no jokes. all of my emotions are back where. i feel even more happy, and i don;t give to shits about any thing any more, i love it, i don;t feel bad at all. 

all i have to say is...
i love you mary jane<3

im in that hgaopy place where i used to be..
im alive,
im not drowndsing in my thoughts any more,
im free 
i reqally am.
i just confessed about hjow i felt to andrea on the sintra situation.
i cried. i always cry when im hrigh(N):<
i finaly confesed that i miss joseph and i thjink thats why my heat is sick
fuck and it feels back every thing is snapping back in time and that everything is going to be back too 2003 and that the people are callling my name and im going back in time to fix it, so that it could go the way i planed.
fuck i really miss him.
im glad i can;t give my heart to this person.
but im glad u know.friends foever